screw it, i'll do it later

2005-01-27T14:58:00.000-08:00

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy BIRTHDAY DANNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss you soooo much wish i could see you on your birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

2005-01-26T15:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BACA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope today was awesome for ya!!!!
sorry i couldnt see you on your 15th... im sick... well happy birthday once more!

2005-01-14T13:57:00.000-08:00

i know this is a long post and you probably dont want to read it all but please just bear with me here... ive been keeping this inside for too long and i know im going to go crazy unless i let it out in the open... so here it goes

resently i have been asked by various people from the group, "why dont you hang out with us anymore?" every time i get asked this i just want to break down and cry(sometimes i do when im alone)... i feel like im losing my friends and that yall are mad at me or something. its not that i dont want to hang with you guys its just that, when i do its like im not even there.
after danny moved it seemed like everyone just sorta i dont know, really depressed or something and i was right there with ya... but for the three or four weeks i was hangin with you guys at lunch i ended up not getting a seat at the table cuz it was so crowded, so i would just sit on the ground, eat a sandwitch and i was bearly acknollaged by anyone. there were so many conversations at once you couldnt hear what someone two people away was saying...so crowded...never silence...never a moment when you could feel a connection with a friend...all this drama: people getting in fights backstabing talking about each other behind others backs...is this what the group is all about, i know that that cant be and i hate not being considered part of the group anymore... i hate that this large mass of people know as the group can so simply get into fights or can be so close they are like a family, it really hurts to not be thought of as part of that family.
so as i sat there on the cold ground one day(at lunch with the group) i got to wondering why i was sitting on the cold hard ground. it just feels like noone cared about me so once i got into a relationship with kel i though "hey im gunna see what his lunch is like" so i went with him to the wall where it was just a few of kels friends... the wall was like a shield from the rest of the world, quiet, solitary and no seniors ever threw bannanas at you for singing happy birthday too loudly. at the wall people accually adressed me...yeah like straight out talked to me and told me stories and jokes, even showed me the disco dance they made up. it feels like they accually relize im there. i love everyone in the group so much and i want to make that perfectally clear... i love everysingle one of you!! and i miss you all soo much but i cant leave kel we are in love with each other and i dont know how i could manage without him...how i would make it through when i was down like how i felt sitting on the ground at the feet of my best friends, while the year past me by. i just want you guys to understand how hard it is for me when you ask why i dont hang out with you guys anymore. cuz believe me if i could i would but im sick of feeling like nobody...

2005-01-11T15:31:00.000-08:00

Its MICHELLE'S BIRTHDAY!!! 15....YEAH!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE DEL ROSARIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-07T23:36:00.000-08:00

hey i just got back from babysitting this two year old, Cole. its effin 11 40 man!
so yeah i was looking forward to band practice today... but it was canceled... then i was looking forward to mabe going to (dave brown)'s play with kel, but then my mom is like " hey casey guess what you have a babysitting job tonight!" and then i already made a deal and accepted a bribe from my sister to babysit tomorrow night. then i have to babysit cole again on sunday... so wtf im fu**in babysitting this whole fuc**ing weekend!! damn... i need sleep... i wish someone was online though, i want to talk to someone...anyone i want to talk to you!! who ever is reading this I WANT TO TALK TO YOU!!!

2004-12-12T14:18:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the winter ball i had an awesome time even though i dont dance and i hated the music they played and my ears were ringing like crazy. But vona came over at like 1pm and took a shower at my house then bri came over with wontons and apple cider and we had fun. then amanda and sophia came over and we got ready for the ball, we looked hot. EVERYONE at the ball looked f**kin sexy! I got to slow dance with kel and i was going to tell him something but i didnt have the balls so im sort of pissed at myself. kel is so perfect for me i dont know how else to say it. after the dance we went to dennys: lily, amanda, jen, me, kel, corey, ivy, alex ray munez, danielle, alex & jessica price. it was so much fun! God kel is so effing perfect for me. then vona spent the night at my house and yeah so that was a awesome weekend now i have to do a shit load of homework.
peace and love
casey

2004-12-10T20:40:00.000-08:00

I havent updated since danny left so i guess im due. so yeah... winter ball is tomorrow, im a little nervous and i dont even know why. I need to chill out. Im going with kel. he really means a lot to me, i've never know anyone who has this much in common with me, we even have the same dreams... i dont know what i would do if i lost him. im so lucky we're together. huhhh..*sigh*.. oh sorry thats right im writing a post.. so uh yeah is that good enough? alright well i hope so cuz im done.

2004-10-31T11:46:00.000-08:00

i am writting this post at 12:30 the night before halloween well i guess it is officially halloween since its past 12. but anyways danny is leaving, and we only these few short hours to spend with him. its so depressing...I tryed to finish writing this one song for you danny but i couldnt, so im going to record and mail it to you once i am done. I've been crying all night since we dropped danny off at lins house, my eyes are bloodshot and my eye vision is blurry. there are black stains running down my face and under my eyes. Im a wreck. I havent said a word in so long, it feels like i dont remember how to talk, Danny i miss you so much and you havent even left yet! What am i going to do once you leave.....PLEASE...DONT GO...DONT LEAVE US....please...

damn its like 12am on halloween... i accidentally clicked "save a draft" instead of "pulish post" man im a loser...

2004-10-28T16:37:00.000-07:00

setting things straight.... me and mikie arent going out never were. yeah, havent had time to post things that i have wanted to say during the past couple weeks so i will just say them now.

OCTOBER 25 2OO4
i have relized that there must be something about me that makes guys like me one second and drop me flat on my face the next. it hurts really bad.... im starting to not even believe anything good that ever happens to me, its never real. but i guess you just have to move on and forget the past. live life in the present.read my poem. I guess my comment thing doesnt work so leave your comments in the chat box cuz im not changing my template. :) too lazy

Drain your heartache in tears
It wont end the sorrow
Ingolf comfort
It wont solve your pain
Avoid collision in fear
Of memories to return
You've lost your soul
Too afraid to seek it
Lost in the abyss
Of those dark, endless eyes
Lose your guard
Not worth feeling
Every peircing glance
Every broken silence:
By the violent ravaging
Pip of every screaming
Bloodsoaked heartstring
Forget the past
It becomes but a nightmare
Dont wither in the shadows
Or bleed upon his thorns
If your eyes should burn
Until they turn to dust
Curse not those who saw
They witnessed you parish
Blame falls upon you
Through your depression
You could not hear their crys
You should die in their arms
And never see
The past that ended
Your life

-casey reagan

2004-10-12T15:24:00.000-07:00

I love life right now. Im not sure if anyone even reads this anymore but i really love my life.... wow my computer almost died on me, wierd. Yeah dont know wat else to say at the moment... so i guess im done.

2004-10-11T21:13:00.000-07:00

Superman died... thats sad. But me and Mikie are ging out, thats not! I'm so happy! Thanks for always being there... your so hot! ;)

:)

2004-10-10T17:55:00.000-07:00

yeah....me and danny broke up this week. homecoming was this week, by the way you guys did awesome on the float at the game, props to you guys! i felt sort of wierd all week but i think im getting better. ummm... went to dennys on friday, got home at 1:30am. went to fright fest last night, got home at 11...feeling sorta sleep deprived. oh and ive been holding this in all day but... WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE MOVING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! danny jen and now mikie!!!!! why are you doing this to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus, why is this happening? :(
i love you guys, dont leave..... please....

2004-09-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

omfg! this has been the happiest week ever! as you all should know by now the guy i was talking about last post is danny. I told jessica that i liked him, she told him while i was sitting right there! it scared me so much, because i thought for sure he would say that he doesnt like me that way. Then the same lunch, BAM, this funny, hot unattainable guy asked me out! it was like i was dreaming! if you saw me that day after school before marching, i garentee that you have never seen me smile like that! omg thank you jess i truely owe you a LOT! i never thought that danny would ask me out...:) but im really glad he did. working on the freshmen float is fun. today was fun, me, danny, jess, mish,lily,brian,prince,jeena,manda,jen sophia(for a while)....god i dont want to type anymore names! anywaz we went to joes, roundtable, coffee shop, furniture store and the park it was really fun. ngg has a gig and i am not freakin gunna be here for it! which makes me super pissed! im leaving for mendisino tomorrow morning so i guess jeena is "taking my spot for the gig" so good luck guys, have fun at the party..... without me....:(

anyways im going to stop boring whoever is reading this... bye!

2004-09-18T19:47:00.000-07:00

guten tag!
this week sorta sucked. I dont really care though. things with myles didnt work out, but im glad that hes my friend, cuz hes a really awesome guy. but yeah im not like those people who if the guy they want doesnt like them back they totally turn their back on them, im more of a get rejected then be you can be best friends with them.its going to be interesting to see what he does once he feels comfortable around everyone, hes really outgoing! i think i like someone else though so who care wat happened with myles. i liked when i liked myles too, but hes always seemed, i dont know, unattainable...so yeah im gunna end this post before i give too much away. i think i already did, oh well i was bound to say something sooner or later and i don't want to go back and delete stuff so...bis spater!

2004-09-11T18:57:00.000-07:00

mala kahiki makka rock 'n rollers.

in my last post i said that my weekend was boring but it ended up being really fun thanx to amanda letting up come over to her house. it was me, emma,lily,manda, and anthony. it was a bunch of fun, & it made my weekend so thankx.

ngg(the band) was suppost to go to LA this weekend. we didnt contact auggie, so...you know we just didnt end up going. it sux, but you know but i dont think we are ready as a band to go down there and play "my boyfriends back".

i have lots of homework but i really dont want to do it right now. i cant wait until school, as you all probably know i like someone and i REALLY want something to happen sometime during the week. i hope you werent making things up on the bus, cough cough brian. you know when you say "cough cough" it doesnt make it any less obvious, so why do i always seem to do it? i dunno so yeah i guess im done.
Peace & Love Everyone

2004-09-05T13:27:00.000-07:00

yo guys.

so the summer is over, we are in high school... lifes pretty crazy when you think about it. friday i went on the bus with mish, anthony, lily & amanda. we got baskin robbins, then coffee. then we chilled at jo's for a while. mish had to go home quite early so me and lil walked her home then we headed to manda's(god i love her house). we watched the degrassi unscripted with addamo regiaro or watever his name you know he is the gay guy. anywaz then anthony got that dvd thing with the episode where manny gets an abortion, i had to leave before it was over though be cause it was my mommas bday and so we went with her to some crappy consert, where all the people were old and needed younger people to feed on... i mean help them walk. i hope you all had fun at the movies, those of you that went, or cough cough where cough invited. cough. i went shopping yesterday and this chick walked in to hot topics and thought i worked there, and she kept asking me questions about where stuff was & how much i cost... it was funny. but who cares anyways i saw lilys mom at the store...and yeah, practice tomorrow and thats basically all thats up this weekend.

peace & love

today.....

2004-08-20T14:16:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of band camp. the games where so much fun! i love tug-a-war even more than i did before we played today( and i liked it a lot already). i sucked at that slogan game... i knew everyone elses except mine, damn it, i should have sat somewhere else in the circle. i thought we did pretty well in the competition until i asked my sister what her group got...almost two times more than us. all in all it was fun, and lily even showed up! Yay! once drumline pactice was about to start i decided that it was time for me to tell matt that i was going to quit drumline. i felt so much worse telling shoe though... she turned around and stopped talking to us after i told her but then later i guess she forgave me cuz she came up to me and shook my hand and said, thanks for coming anyways. then while i was waiting for my sister to show up to give me a ride home i watched the bass section set up, and i felt so bad to be leaving shoe, kyle and weldon(and janel). then once the whole drumline started playing i relized that i was going to miss everyone there, brian, anthony,brandon,jessica, corey,matt...everyone. I'M SORRY EVERYONE! i guess i'll just talk to you guys tonight at the food thingy.

yo!

2004-08-19T19:09:00.000-07:00

hey guys just updating. after 13 hours of grueling volleyball conditioning... i got cut from the team. it sucked but watever i guess its just not my thing. on wednesday brian comes up to me and asks me if i want to join drumline. after being kicked off the volleyball team i thought what the hell it'll be fun. my first day went just fine, i didnt do so hot though. drumline is so much fun, and thats why i felt so guilty today... i decided that i am going to quit tomorrow. im sorry for those who were happy that i was joining, i really wish i could keep going with it, but i just cant make the comitment that is needed if i want to be in drumline. i cant count the notes for shit, my attention is horrible, i have to consentrate on getting straight a's( because as all of you should know, your high school grades, desides your future) and i have to do a sport. if i did drumline i wouldnt be able to come to the practices...then i would get saturday detention. im sorry guys i want to stay in drumline, it would be so much fun. i am sorry if i let anyone down, im sure you'll find another bass player, and probabl y on who is better than me.

mala kahiki makka rock'n'rollers!

2004-08-16T17:58:00.000-07:00

hey, im sorry for not updating its just that i kept deleting my updates and i never felt like retyping it.
hopefully it will work this time. i would like to thank baca and michelle.... they are the ones who helped me out with this blog....so, you know.... thanx! today was brutal i just got back from volleyball conditioning... let me tell you it is hard work! i have to go there at 8-11am then come back from 3-5pm it is tiring. so i only get to do one or two hours of band camp... just in case anyone was wondering why i was late. well i know i dont like to read long posts so yeah i guess im done for now. bye!

2004-07-02T15:51:00.000-07:00

hehehe i have a blog... wow
FAIR WARNING: I wont update a lot

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2004-07-02T15:39:00.000-07:00

title explains i belive

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2004-07-02T15:33:00.000-07:00

testing....1...2...3....

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